Howllo Fellow Basset Hound and Liver Lovers. The title of this blog is a bit odd but I wanted others with similar questions to maybe find this posting on the internet.
Emma is doing good today and is on a course of steroids and liver antibiotics. We know this is not a cure but we will see if it helps her eat and stay happy.
This post is long but I want to make sure I keep all of this together so I can remember what we did for Emma.
I made a decision a long time ago that I was not going to go the route that I went with Chloe and Lily at the ends of their lives with any other future hounds. I made long shot bad decisions at a time of panic and not much thought. I didn’t ask enough questions. I didn’t do enough research. I rushed along with the surgeons placing my babies in their hands. From my experience the procedure or surgery is always pushed over the sometimes more obvious choice.
For both of my hounds (Chloe and Lily) it was surgery to biopsy this or remove that. My decision was made in a panic situation and the vets were more than willing to rush into complicated and what I eventually found out, unnecessary procedures. Both Chloe and Lily died on the surgical table. The what ifs still swirl in my head but the lessons learned were invaluable. Do not be pressured into surgery. Take a deep breath and figure out what is right for your hound and your family. In most cases there is time to think things over.
So, when we took Emma in for her non invasive liver ultrasound we knew that we were not going to have any invasive procedures. I just wanted to see what the condition of her liver looked like and see what the alternatives were to us. I knew the first and fastest option suggested by the vet would be surgery or a biopsy. Bingo! Enter the stern surgeon with the grave look on her face as she pontificates, all while looking down, and never at Emma…..
“she will need a liver biopsy before we can suggest any treatment. Her liver is lumpy and large.”
My Mom and I sat looking on, the doctor still looking down never touching Emma.
I asked,
“May I see the ultrasound images?” (knowing full well I was not going to get a liver biopsy).
The stern surgeon looked at me with disgust as if to imply with her manner, what the hell do you know about ultrasound images and what the hell are you questioning me for as she shuffled through the black and white grainy images that cost more than a life time supply of Milk Thistle.
I looked at the images and had no clue what they were. I paid for them and I wanted to see them. The images of our Emma’s large lumpy liver were right there, in front of me. I touched them and knew in that instant this woman would never touch my girl again. The nerve of this woman. Who does she think she is?
She turned her steely eyes to mine….
“I can get her in for the biopsy tomorrow morning”, she rattled off, I could almost hear the adding machine tally in her head.
Did I dare ask another question? I girded my loins and went for it!
“Hum, doctor? What are the potential out comes of a liver biopsy?”
Dr. Biopsy turned on her heel and said, “Cancer for one!, the dog will need radiation therapy”. I heard more adding machine clicks but not a total, not yet.
*cough*, and in my head, I am thinking, I wonder why she thinks I would even do that. She has asked me ZERO questions about Emma, not a one. She seemed miffed we were even in the room. Talk about your absent bedside manner.
The whole thing was surreal and I knew right then that this woman was a hack. A total money grubber. A real jerk. But I wanted to be sure.
I tried to ask one more question which was at this point directed at her back as she was walking out the door. I felt like grabbing the back of her shirt and yanking her back in the room.
“Dr., is there any medicinal therapy we could try first?” My voice echoing down the long hall towards the surgery suites…..
All I could feel was the rush of the air as the door was slamming in my face as Dr. Biopsy clicked and clacked down the hall saying, without looking at me, “No!”. I looked at my Mom and I said,
“Did that really just happen?”
Well, even thought I had made up my mind from previous experiences this confirmed every thing for me. No way was Emma ever going to get a biopsy. Again, Grandma and I both knew that going in but we were hopeful that something could be suggested other than major surgery. Yes, a liver biopsy is major surgery. The complications are real and many. Do you think that was ever discussed with me? Never. Dr. Biopsy did not even ask about Emma or why she was blind. She has clearly had surgeries before. Nothing was even asked about howl she did as a surgical patient.
Emma is severely allergic to surgical scrub! Who cares, “what’s your credit card number?” was the much more important question as the assistants came filing in. “No food or water after midnight” one gal methodically announced. “How will you be paying?” the next question came with ease. “You can drop her off at 8:00am”. Keep in mind, I never said I was getting Emma a liver biopsy.
Come on! Is it getting this bad? I called my vet in dis-belief. I told him I was not getting the liver biopsy. He said, “So, when are you getting it?”
So, fast forward until last Friday. I take Emma in for her blood tests to see if the disease has progressed and howl much. I am worried because she is not eating. I want some suggestions. Surprise, surprise, I am still being pressured to get the biopsy. I emphatically state that I am not getting the biopsy and what else can be done? The answer is “I won’t judge you for not getting the biopsy, let’s wait and see what the blood test reveals.” Huh? He won’t judge me?
The blood test is about the same and I again ask for something that might help her eat and decrease the inflammation in the liver. I know it is not a magic bullet but is there anything?
“CAN ANYONE HEAR ME?”
He said he will call the other internist and I insist that he does not call Dr. Biopsy. Can’t stand that woman.
I wait 2 days, nothing. I finally go off the deep end. Emma’s vet calls back and he starts off, and I kid you not, “Well, without the biopsy we really can’t do much diagnosing…. are you sure you don’t want to get the biopsy?”
At this point steam is coming out of my ears….
He goes on….
“I talked to the other internist and he said, that he would suggest the biopsy for Emma and he can’t really advise otherwise without it….”
Are you even kidding me?
He goes on….
“The internist is not suggesting this but now that I know you are not going to get the biopsy”….
(translation, now that the internist knows I am not going to cough up a grand in addition to the 500 for the ultrasound…)
“Let’s try a course of steroids and Metronidazole.”
Turns out, this is the same treatment that would have been suggested after a liver biopsy for someone that does not want the hail Mary alternatives such as radiation, transfusions or whatever else they have to offer that will send a chill so deep up your credit card it will crack.
Nothing and I repeat NOTHING was going to change after the liver biopsy for Emma and I firmly believe they all knew that.
Emma is now on her second dose and even just ate a little bit of dog food. She is no longer shivering and actually had a wonderful walk to the park. She had a good potty and her tinkle was not reddish.
We know that this is not a cure but it might buy us some time and her some comfort. She is even starting back on her Milk Thistle. I have found a few canine liver sources on the internet that I will share if they work out.
I remember being one of those crying folks, rushed into a health care decision and then making the wrong one. I know this is the right decision for our family. Everyone has to figure out what is right for them. Ask all the questions you want and don’t let anyone slam the door in your face. I had already made up my mind before we went in that I was not doing anything surgical so to have Dr. Biopsy slam the door and walk away from us was just her showing her butt. I wonder if she has ever heard of word of mouth? Situations like this used to be suffered in silence but not anymore.
I would put a third mortgage on my home if I thought it would buy Emma more years, it has never been about money to me. It is about the time we have left with her and the quality of that time.
I think the best vets are great diagnosticians coupled with compassion. The very best add some holistic measures into their practice.
I am going to do right by my hounds and feel good about it. I must thank Chloe and Lily for teaching me that lesson. Amazing teachers they were.
More girding the loins later….Cat, Chaps and Emma
PS – thank you to the residents for standing with us and offering so many suggestions and support! WOW! Just amazing….